Being back in Denmark, and spending time with my family has certainly made me think about my future. I love my country, but at the same time I know I can not live here. If I want to keep on writing, I need to live some where else.
I can not explain why, because Denmark should be as good a place as any other country, but somehow I do not see my country as the land of opportunities, especially not when it comes to writing, and I will like to be free of the rules my country lays upon me, and being able to do what I like without feeling bad about it. It might sound spoiled, and perhaps I am, but giving up on my dream is not a possibility!
I´m back in Denmark for Christmas, and it is fantastic to be back and spend some time with my family. However, I miss Paris already, and is looking forward to going back in January.
I will probably spend some time next summer, as a Tumbleweed in Shakespeare & Company(which means that I will live there for free, in exchange for a couple of hours work everyday). It will give me the opportunity to concentrate on my writing, and see some more of Paris.
I have spend quite some time looking into writing jobs, mainly in England. I think that especially London, will be the place to be if I want to make a living out of my writing. I do not think its possible in Denmark, not right now anyhow.
Saturday, I realized what I want to be when I “grow up”. I am turning 29 in less than a month and in march I will graduate from the University, so maybe I was expected to know that sooner. And I guess that in some way, I have always known what my purpose in life was, I just did not have the courage to admit it to myself – because what if I failed at it?
Becoming a writer and perhaps working as a journalist, would be amazing and finally admitting it to myself, makes it a lot easier to plan the future. I have tons of ideas and thoughts about how I can make that dream come true, and I will share it with you when I get it all sorted out in my head:)
This photo does not belong to me either:)
I just saw Little Women(again!), and it made me think about how all my favorite books as a child, had a heroine who liked to write. Anne of Green Gables, Emily Of New Moon, Jo March from Little Women and Laura Ingalls Wilder from The Little House of the Prairie. All strong, independent women who wrote. Granted most of them are fiction, but they still had a big part in creating my interest in writing, and somehow the books are still with me and I like to reread them once in awhile. Right now, I of course had to start reading Little Women again:-)
Meg Ryan said in You´ ve Got Mail, that: “When you read a book as a child, it becomes a part of your identity in a way that no other reading in your whole life does”. And I totally agree with that.
Being a single girl in Paris is not easy, I can sure vouch for that. The city is filled with lovely and sweet, helpful people, but its also filled with creepy guys… Thank god, they are not all like the guy I met last friday – he was really awful, and should not be allowed to speak to anyone.
Other then that, I feel lucky to have met so many fun and sweet people during the 7 weeks I have been here:)
In less then two weeks I will be in Denmark, to spend christmas with my family. I do not know how I feel about that. I miss my family and friends, but I think it will be difficult for me to leave Paris, even though I know I will be coming back in January. But that is how much Paris has come to mean to me.
Even so…. I have this thing called restlessness – it sucks because it means that I hate being in the same place for too long, and it means that I am constantly making new plans where to go next. I am not sure what is going to happen, but I do know I will stay in Paris until May, and then I will just have to see where the signs takes me next time – New York maybe?:) Or back to Denmark perhaps….
The last week, has been kind of busy. Besides working on my dissertation I have been going out almost every night. Paris is filled with things to do, good places to eat and there is still so much I have not seen yet. I have been spending a lot of time at the bookstore – I really get a lot of inspiration from just being there, and the people who works there are just amazing and so encouraging, which really helps my writing along.
A new magazine in Paris for English speakers, called Paris Lit Up Magazine is looking for poems or prose submissions for the launch of the magazine in May next year. The deadline will be on February 28th, and I was thinking that I might like to contribute with something… One of the first tiny steps of getting something published – maybe:)
Other then that, I seem to run into a lot of people, who are in Paris to write which makes sense since Paris has attracted writers from all over the world for a very long time. All in all, all signs seems to point in one direction for me at the moment, so obviously I have to follow the signs:)