Being unemployed do have its positive sides. One of those being that I can plan my day as I want. However, most of my days fly by so fast, and I often end up with the feeling that I haven’t really done anything. I usually don’t spend most of the morning sleeping, but often it still ends up being between 8 and 9 before I get up, and as I don’t like to rush in the morning I prefer to have at least one hour to take a shower, have breakfast and so on, meaning that it is often at least 10, before I start doing anything. Still, this means that I have plenty of time left to do all the things I need to do and want to do. But I don’t know what happens, because I often end up spending the day on a few things instead of being very productive for a the whole day and then maybe call it a day at 4 or 5, without feeling guilty because I have actually done the things that I wanted to do that day. I haven’t quite figured out how to be more productive during the day, especially in regards to the things that I really want to do;
I talk a lot about all the things I want to do. All the dreams I have, and the good things I want to make happen in my life. I talk and I talk some more. And the closer I get to actually feeling “yes this is what I want” and actually felling it a 100%, the more stupid I feel. Because I don’t do anything about it. “I want to be a writer”. Okay, then write. And I write and I write. Then I stop. And then all the excuse enters. Then I start again. Write, write and write some more. And then I stop. I am like someone trying to quit smoking and failing to do so every time. And why is that? Fear of course. Fear is the one thing that always tends to stop anyone for doing what they really want. “I want to move to London”. But oh no I can´t. I have to…bla.bla. And then all the excuses start again. One of my excuses for getting some writing done for instance, is that I don’t have a table; I will have to sit with my laptop on my lap making it bit more difficult to enjoy the process. But then go to a library right? There is one just five minutes from where I live…more excuses I guess.
But..I guess I can start on Monday right?
What do you do to implement a good daily routine? Are you able to being productive enough during the day, or are you constantly behind and feeling guilty? I hope not, but if you are do share ♥
This week has consisted of all kinds of delightful things (and not so delightful ones – a fight with a friend. That’s the worse!). A date, a job interview followed by a second interview – still waiting for an answer (it´s not a job I really want though, but what can you do – a girl got to earn some money one way or another), coaching session with a professional coach specialized in helping people like me finding a job they really want!, buying books at the local library’s book sale, writing an application in regards to an internship at this lovely bookstore, reading a book or two, writing, and getting rid of tons of clothes!
This weekend is filled with family time, Sunday especially will be good. A day of christmas fun doing DIY, eating candy and listening to christmas carols.
A look into my new favorite bookstore (besides Shakespeare & Company and Waterstones of course ♥) – without buying anything!
A potential reading experience?
A book probably worth buying ♥
Astrid Lindgren – a book well dicussed in Denmark right now.
Despite the before mentioned fight, my weekend is going to be okay.
Hope yours will be too ♥
I have not written anything since the first of november. I have been even more busy then I thought I would be. But not with writing though. I got off to a good start and wrote 9000 words pretty quickly. But then I started to get more and more busy with other things. I tried to make writing a priority but a lot of the time I was just too occupaid with other things. And I feel so guilty about that, because I promised to make writing my top priority this month and I failed. The thing is though that there is only a bit over a week left, and I will probably not be able to write the last 40.000 words that I need in order to win the NaNoWriMo.
I try to look at the positive in everything, and figure out what there is to learn from any experience. What I realise now is that I do not work well under pressure. I know that if I want to make a living out of my passion, I will probably have to work under deadlines, but at the moment it does not really work for me. I can´t write if I got a thousand other things occupaying my mind. It kind of kills the creative flow – for me at least. What also happened was that I ended up hating my storyline. It did not work for me at all, and I don´t think I can get anything more out of it. I´m afraid that if I continue the story, it will create some kind of tension everything I sit down and write, and I so do not want writing to be something that causes unnecessary annoyance or stress like this was starting to…
But today I actually got my urge to write back, and I started writing another story kind of inspired by the book “Fangirl” by Rainbow Rowell… It will probably not be a part of the NaNoWriMo, but you never know….