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back when I went to university, I traveled a lot. And I am so glad that I did, because I had not expected to go 3 years without going anywhere (except for a few days in Germany). It has been kind of okay, I have not missed it terribly but now I do.
So I am just so happy about the fact that I am going to London for two weeks by the end of may, and thats basically all I can think about at the moment. The really funny (and quite annoying) thing about me is that even though right now I live in this nice flat, that I just moved in to, and really love, I constantly find myself wondering if perhaps I should have waited a bit. I have always thought (and hoped) that I would someday move back to England, but somehow I never quite found the courage to do it, and I thought that finding my own place would somehow make my feel more settled down. I hate that concept, but at the same time I really wished I just could do that. I am 32 now. Shouldn’t it be about time to do what all the other kids are doing? And I did promise my self, and everyone else who helped me move, that I would live here at least for 2 years.
When I was younger, I used to write tons of letters. I have had penpals from all over the world, and loved it every time I received a letter from one of them. This was especially important because it made me feel a lot less lonely. I did not have many friends growing up, but I am glad that I was able to find friends elsewhere. In letters as well in books. Words definitely had a major influence on me, and though I might have been lonely at home and at school, I found a lot of comfort in words, that made characters in books and the people who wrote letters to me (even though I hadn’t met them in real life), come to life.
I think that is partly why the internet is so important to a lot people, it’s an easy way to connect to people who are on the other side of the world, and can maybe make you feel less disconnected and less lonely. I sure was grateful for it the times I lived outside of Denmark. Today I have many friends, but a lot of the time I prefer being by myself, and the internet can help me still feel close to the people I care about. Nothing beats a normal conversation with people though, so the internet will never come close to replacing that.
Anyway, this was not supposed to be about the internet, but about letter writing, which to me seems like a kind of lost art. One of the things I want to do this year is to write more letters, so finding a penpal or two will be fantastic! There must be people out there who still likes an old-fashioned letter in the mailbox?
Today I read in a book (Just Kids, by Patti Smith – read it, I think you will enjoy it!) , that what you do the 1st of January defines the rest of the year. I think that you can always, and not only on the 1st day of the year, do something that will define that specific day, or you at that moment, or the rest of the year for that matter. Only oneself can decide that, but at the same time there is something about doing something you like at this very day, where we welcome the new year as a fresh start, a new beginning ♥
I got up pretty late, but then went for a long walk. The weather was really warm for this time of the year, and for a moment I just stood in the sun enjoying the stillness and the fact that I did not have anything I had to do at that moment. In a time where almost everyone brags about how busy they are all the time, I thought that bragging about how little I did today was much better. Later today I went for another walk, this time bringing along my camera. The lightning was just perfect today, and I got the perfect chance to play around with my camera ♥
At this moment I am procrastinating a lot. I am suppose to study for an exam on Tuesday, so I better get to it.
Today is the 21th. of December, and I am over the moon ecstatic about the fact, that I finally have a long vacation, which means tons of books, long walks, writing, creative living, time with friends and family, movies, chocolate and carols 🙂
A couple of days ago I bought a camera as a (very expensive) Christmas present for myself, and yesterday I brought it with me when I went to meet a friend for lunch. We took it with us on our walk to the water and through the forest. I took some very nice photos and there seems to be plenty of fun creativity things to do with my new investment.
A while ago, I read Elizabeth Gilberts Big Magic – Creative Living Beyond Fear, which motivated me to do other creative stuff then just writing. Besides playing around with my camera, I am trying to learn how to play guitar, and have borrowed my mom’s guitar, which she bought in the 1970s (which is perfect since I am really into the 70s at the moment).
Big Magic is, in many ways, the book I have been missing and I think I will reread it in a short while, because I have this idea that it might have something more to teach me. Big Magic challenges me in a way, because it refuses to let me (the creative person) fall in to the trap so many creatives fall into; we take ourselves and our art way to seriously. In many cases that means we end up doing less then we should or could, because we want all we create to be perfect and more important than it really is. So go do stuff! (Have you noticed that when people give advice, it is usually about themselves?) .
Elizabeth Gilbert is perhaps most famous for her book Eat Pray Love (which I loved!), but to me she is just as much known for her take on creativity as she is for her authorship, especially in regards to women and creativity. In connection with the publication of Big Magic (which was in September), she also started a series of podcasts called Magic Lessons, where she talks to a lot of different people (like Sheryl Strayed – the author of Wild) about creativity – you can find them here.
Frieday, after school I meet up with a old friend from Copenhagen, and talking to her made me less scared to make some difficult decisions. I am the type of person that wants to be able to do everything by myself, but some times getting some perspective and good advice from a friend can really make all the difference ♥
“Ah freedom. How we hate having it threatened. Multipotentialites, in particular, tend to experience a particular type of fear related to our freedom: we worry that by choosing to pursue something, we are caging ourselves in and making it impossible to pursue any other interests. This fear can paralyze us, making it impossible to take any action at all”- Emilie Wapnick.
I can relate to this so much, because some times I feel that having multiple interests is more a burden then a blessing, even though a career coach I once went to a few times referred to me as a generalist, which supposedly is a good thing. As for being paralyzed by fear, I am right in the middle of it, going from wanting financial stability to taking a chance even though it might mean hardly getting paid at all.
Once again a big part of me wishes that I could be content just having any job and following the road frequently travelled. For what is wrong just going to work, and then coming home enjoying your sparetime, and just waiting for the weekend and the next holiday? Nothing I guess, and a lot people do not have any other option then to do that but I would really hate to live like that – oh but wait a moment. I am living like that… oh crap 🙂 I still don´t know where I am going or what I am going to do, but I do know that I want a life that consists of glitter, unicorns and butterflies and where I feel inspired and inspire others on a daily basis.
Good news though, I recently started a new association called Zero Waste Danmark, and I was choosen as the cashier. It really was a tough election, between me and me 🙂 I am looking forward to learning more about how it is to be part of a board, and hope that we will be able to make a difference someday.
I have not been blogging since the end of november, but I am so happy to see that so many of you are still following my blog. I am really glad to be back, and equally happy that I decided to take a break. Just around december I realised I was spending more of my time reading about other people lives, then actually living my own. This made me take a break from posting on this blog, though I didn´t imagine it would be more the four moths before I would return again.
Since november, I have found a job which is by far not my dream job but it pays the bills and more. I like having something to get up to in the morning, and I like having colleagues to share my everyday with.
I will not say not much at the present, I just wanted to let you all know that I am back and hopefully for good or at least for a very long time.
I am still dreaming of countries far away ♥
During tons of yoga ♥
Trying to find the balance in every aspect of life ♥
Being unemployed do have its positive sides. One of those being that I can plan my day as I want. However, most of my days fly by so fast, and I often end up with the feeling that I haven’t really done anything. I usually don’t spend most of the morning sleeping, but often it still ends up being between 8 and 9 before I get up, and as I don’t like to rush in the morning I prefer to have at least one hour to take a shower, have breakfast and so on, meaning that it is often at least 10, before I start doing anything. Still, this means that I have plenty of time left to do all the things I need to do and want to do. But I don’t know what happens, because I often end up spending the day on a few things instead of being very productive for a the whole day and then maybe call it a day at 4 or 5, without feeling guilty because I have actually done the things that I wanted to do that day. I haven’t quite figured out how to be more productive during the day, especially in regards to the things that I really want to do;
I talk a lot about all the things I want to do. All the dreams I have, and the good things I want to make happen in my life. I talk and I talk some more. And the closer I get to actually feeling “yes this is what I want” and actually felling it a 100%, the more stupid I feel. Because I don’t do anything about it. “I want to be a writer”. Okay, then write. And I write and I write. Then I stop. And then all the excuse enters. Then I start again. Write, write and write some more. And then I stop. I am like someone trying to quit smoking and failing to do so every time. And why is that? Fear of course. Fear is the one thing that always tends to stop anyone for doing what they really want. “I want to move to London”. But oh no I can´t. I have to…bla.bla. And then all the excuses start again. One of my excuses for getting some writing done for instance, is that I don’t have a table; I will have to sit with my laptop on my lap making it bit more difficult to enjoy the process. But then go to a library right? There is one just five minutes from where I live…more excuses I guess.
But..I guess I can start on Monday right?
What do you do to implement a good daily routine? Are you able to being productive enough during the day, or are you constantly behind and feeling guilty? I hope not, but if you are do share ♥
This week has consisted of all kinds of delightful things (and not so delightful ones – a fight with a friend. That’s the worse!). A date, a job interview followed by a second interview – still waiting for an answer (it´s not a job I really want though, but what can you do – a girl got to earn some money one way or another), coaching session with a professional coach specialized in helping people like me finding a job they really want!, buying books at the local library’s book sale, writing an application in regards to an internship at this lovely bookstore, reading a book or two, writing, and getting rid of tons of clothes!
This weekend is filled with family time, Sunday especially will be good. A day of christmas fun doing DIY, eating candy and listening to christmas carols.
A look into my new favorite bookstore (besides Shakespeare & Company and Waterstones of course ♥) – without buying anything!
A potential reading experience?
A book probably worth buying ♥
Astrid Lindgren – a book well dicussed in Denmark right now.
Despite the before mentioned fight, my weekend is going to be okay.
Today is the day before November 1st. I am getting ready to emerge myself into writing. I am excited, worried and happy. It is going to be amazing and really frustrating. I might not make it. I might crack after a week. I might not get pass 5000 words, but I will try my hardest. My November will be filled with a lot more than writing, but it will still be a top priority.
Tomorrow I am going to a birthday in the afternoon, so I will try to get my word count done in the morning. I have to prepare you (or warn you, depend on how you look at it), November will probably only be about the NaNoWriMo event, so I hope you are ready for it? Along the way, I will also post some of the vlogs I watch during the month in regards to this event.
The one in this post is on how to improve your writing, and what I really like about the video is that it revolves around the language itself. For instance, she (Katytastic) warns against using passive voice too much, and to be aware, not to write too much about emotions! She angrily went outside… Especially here, you need to show don’t tell. Both advices I personally need to think about while writing. I might not be able to avoid it all the time, since the story for the NaNoWriMo event, will only be a first draft. The editing will come afterwards (which I have never been good at, and this is usually the point where I give up – but not this year though!).
Last night I decided on a story, and started writing something down about the main character. Today, I will see if I can outline some of the story. I do not have the whole plot figured out though, so I will just see how far I get, and take it as it comes. Usually I work a bit different. I normally just get an idea and then sit down and write. But it is always good to improve where you can, and since one of my biggest problems is to actually finish a story(starting it is a whole other matter, I have no problems there), it is probably a good idea to outline the story as much as possible. I can always change it as I go a long.